When the student is ready, the teacher will appear. 2019 was, and continues to be, my Maths Teacher. You know, the one that holds the information that you aren’t necessarily fond of or want to learn, but you cannot deny the lessons and their equations, whilst complicated, will eventually navigate you to the answers you are seeking.
To me, this year represents challenge. Such a simple yet profound statement. It can be summed up as is, or delved into in layers. I choose to delve.
I won’t sugar coat it – this year has been a soul challenging year. Possibly my toughest yet, in the most ironic of ways. One that I didn’t expect, and one that I certainly wasn’t prepared for.
I love the sense of energy in the air when a new year rings in. To me, it signifies change. In a single moment, you have the power to set whatever intentions have been lingering in your head or your heart – or both. You have conviction to carry out anything you wish. It’s powerful. And empowering. You’re finally getting the hang of life and this year you’re going to nail it! I was well on track to achieving something that until this point, I had only ever dreamed of. It was the pinnacle of everything I truly thought I ever wanted, a personal pipe goal if I may. It was such a big concept in my life. It’s also the driving force for this whole thing in the first place.
Twenty nineteen was going to be my year. I felt it in the core of my being. Cue life.
Life. That big momentous occasion that when you really stop to analyse it, is just a collection of smaller moments all pieced together. There are the seemingly insignificant experiences that go mostly unnoticed, and then, there are the moments that take your breath away. It’s the moments when you have to remind yourself to breathe that I value the most. You suddenly forget everything else around you, and your whole focus is on those vital things that are keeping you alive. You have to breathe, and you need to have life force.
I was about to learn that sometimes, you have to fight for both.
MY MATHS TEACHER AND I 